My Light

"It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us"

Today, during a coaching session with my coach, as I reflected on my immense fear of starting this blog and making it visible to others, he reminded me of this quote from Marianne Williamson’s A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles, which I find worth sharing with you.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?'
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.“

Immediately, as I write this, I hear a little voice inside me saying, “Don’t publish it. What if people think you really believe you can be brilliant?”

I feel the anxiety of imagining myself shining. What a pity!

In truth, I am constantly striving to be and contribute to the world, both personally and professionally, by being who I am. So, it feels like an inner battle, listening to this voice telling me not to do something that I believe will bring me closer to my true self.

What’s interesting is that I have no trouble recognizing the truth of the quote when applied to others. I would say, "Yes, definitely, we are ALL meant to shine." But although "All" includes me, when I think about myself, something inside me reacts, gets triggered, and causes an uncomfortable feeling of fear and anxiety.

I guess some of us have learned to keep ourselves small, as if that were a precondition for being loved. As if, by being small, we protect others from feeling small. If we’re the smallest in the room, everyone else can feel good and be happy, and maybe then they’ll love us. But shedding light on this feeling brings me to say: that’s nonsense! We are loved because we ARE. I love the people in my life for who they are, not for what they do. I love them regardless of their “size,” whether they’re big or small. I love them because they are my people, my family, my friends. And I especially feel deep joy when I see them thriving and shining.

Despite the thoughts telling me not to, the time has come to just do it anyway. So yes, I’m making my words public. I dare to be wrong and I dare to be right! I dear to BE!

Thanks for reading me.

Lots of love,

Núria :)

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